steph

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2006-07-12T03:27:52Z

so i fell for it again... let me tell you who ever is in charge of this "love/guy dept/what ever the hell you wanna call it" really doesn't like me!

ay!

2006-07-11T02:24:03Z

you see ... your gut feeling is always right... its a dam shame

heat !

2006-06-21T22:30:25Z

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2006-05-28T02:58:14Z

i
can
not
deal

yea...

2006-05-18T23:05:00Z

its almost over and done with.... after tues. i am done with highschool.... i do NOT want it to finish .... yea i am insane i know ...but i have always liked school...but this year was a total shock and i loved it

*i spoke to people i never thought i would
*i made new friends that i hope it lasts.... i know most wont ...but i know some will
*i partyed the last months ..it was amazing
*i played naughty with guys that i honestly NEVER thought
*i met a guy that ... well i will never forget him ...lets say i got a taste of a baseball lmao
*i got in a fight with an amazing person that i wish i would have never done
*i opened up to people ...FINALLY
*I WENT TO NEW YORK !!!!!!!!!
*i got my sister back ..YAY
*tried a little special something during a concert
*did the D.E.W
*had my dream dress
*got known as the redhead ..SCORE lol
*flrited shamlessly with the hot switchboard guy
*finally SKIPPED in the activites office everyday for the last 2 months

yep...its been fun ...but i feel like i should have done more ... but i am happy !

so here it is after 5 years

2006-05-12T03:56:19Z

so do you ever ask yourself why you do something that hurts you
you know the outcome isnt going to be good
but you still go at it thinking that your wrong
and as your fighting against everything that getting in your way for a reason
you think ...wow maybe i was wrong
but then BAM you hit right into what you knew you going to hit

so why i ask.... why do we still go at it
one word ...one word that i love and hate
a word that gives people the thing to move
a word that makes us hit that dam wall
a word that without i would not be who i am
(and my little owl already knows this word very well)
H.......O........P.......E

p.s= mirna i <3 you !

ay dam orlando

2006-01-24T04:08:10Z

i almost killed her

then she leaving to a stupid school far far far away

but she deserves it ... shes a dam smart girl

our dates are gonna finish

person KISS HER BEFORE SHE LEAVES

who am i gonna have to take breaks from... who am i gonna got to soho with...whos gonna have random convos with me... i cant think about this ..its making teary

UCF YOU JUST GOT YOURSELF A DAM GOOD GIRL

dance away

2006-01-15T16:25:18Z

I <3 being 18----- soho is a beautiful place*------- last nite was the bomb digtty

i dont even know

2006-01-14T21:08:18Z

its like if i was alone... with no friends

shes not even really there

i really think i will do it more often... shes a bit better in the complicated area

every hour its something new ..stop bitching

i am all screwed up becuse of you ... and i really hate it

thanks to them i see good things

hes not good looking..and it sucks

31... its a bit old but hes a bit hot

ayyy

2006-01-11T03:45:05Z

my parents are nuts crazy phsycho insane scary confusing unhappy people

I wanna leave far far far away

the moon is so pretty i wanna make it my home

i <3 this part

2006-01-09T01:51:14Z

Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there's a circle around it. Sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know. Maybe I had my happiness. I don't want to believe it but, there is no man, Gilly. Only that moon.

leave me once

2006-01-06T20:48:25Z

so what happens when you stop caring?? ...its a bit crazy ...a little too much

its my aunts wedding on saturday ... super happy for her shes like a little girl seeing her magical wedding happening before her eyes

i love my car rides with my sister when we are alone.... we cant stop laughing

anthony is talking to girl... so i guess i couls stop seeing jess as a slut lol lol..jess i am kidding you will never be a slut ..ever

mirnas back... missed her a bit lol ... but i did come to the conclusion while she was gone that i truly do care for her and love her...coming to think about it she can and is the only person ( speaking as friends) that can make me cry...i would kill for her

work is amazing... hardly gonna get hours this month..but ilove it... there is some people that work with me that are truly amazing ..other just make me laugh too much...i feel older there just because they all think i am 20 21

school has lost its touch... first week of school absent once and left early twice and i was late four days

my sister is bitching and its annyoing..now she is whining

i love brenda for taking my siter out

my mom is quite an amazing women ..her and annie are hired to make my wedding beautiful

nicky is officaly off the market...people this is history in the making

LORA LOVE AND PEPPER ARE A COUPLE !!!

i have a promise not a resoultion this month..and if it goes well theni see it becomeing a year promise

i think i might go back to church

i like older men but i dont see myself talking to any ...i think 24 will be my limit..because that 27 year old didnt quite make me happy

I GOT A TATTO ... which i love and adore ..i am going to get an other one pretty soon... this is actually a huge step for me because for the first time i didnt over think it at all

well

2005-12-14T06:01:19Z

tonite is the second nite i get home at 12:00 am.... and i have finals the fun

*work is alot funner, my hot manger is hotter, and i have a colombian kid who is beyond sweet

*school is fine and ...funny , i have been laughing alot more lately during school

* i had a 27 year old guy message me through myspace and i had a short convo. with him.... alhtough the whole thing seemed fishy and stalkerish.... it proved my point that older men are my favorite of the male species

*i miss being with u guys

*.... i miss free time and sleep

to her!

2005-12-02T00:05:30Z

i love you with all of my heart.... i can never get enough of our conversations that last for hours but we dont even feel time go.... laughing with you is 5 times funner than with anyone else... although at first it was hard to tell with your personality but you taught me to be stronger and i thank you... i love ur lemon meat and u better make it at my wedding !!!!! :) .... i am sorry i have kept my distance but i have been completely unwired .... and gap has me as a slave... ihope u know that i am here for you like i know that u are there for me

WELL

2005-11-15T01:13:27Z

well its now 5 years later and i have to the point that i wanna write in my lame lj !

you see what i usually do is just read everyone else and leave lj but this time i have things to say ..oh yes i do

so first of all this goes to you two...more to my "girl"friend
i amazed to what you do sometimes.... JESUS i mean come on you say you dont mind her because she hasnt talked shyt about you to your face...hello but i am sry if i had any respect for myself i will prefer that the person spoke about me to my face and not behind my back ..oh and you say i am your "best"friend really? ...i cant tell you how much it hurts to see you do what you do , the actions you take...you have my number so calling mirny isnt calling me...and yea i do need a personal call because i ALWAYS personally call you ...::sigh:: so you two sat i am ultra sensative and that i am "touchy" well i am once again sry that i care about you two and what you do to me .... i really dont know how i can deal with this anymore i really dont ...i care about you, i wanna be by your side and help you, i wanna make you laugh and i wanna laugh with you but its becoming so diffcult it really is

and to you my guy friend.... boy i dont even know what to say , i thank you for being there for me that nite but well i guess thats it ... and dont offend me again my making me feel shitty of how i am...because i am f-ing proud that i care about what i care about ... i know that you wont ever understand but what are we suppose to do...i like the funny you ...not the i am "carefree" bullshitter

and to you ...oh how i was wrong about you...and i guess you were about me too... 1st you have the guts to speak negative about me to the 2 people i care about the most..and then you and your friends go on and make assumpations of my sister ..WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU??... you go on and say what you want about me but dont you go and touch my sister are u fucking insane??? ... and to get it straight you gave me a "FACE" and made me feel uncomfortable.... and i am sry i didnt make you and your friends stand in a striaght line and shake their hands and introuduced myself....
yea you say you are a drama queen... but i think you hide behind your drama.... i will give it up to you .... you can sing like hell and i have told you...but that cant cover up your downfall as a person
your weak because you let yourself to be stepped on by him and i have told you...
oh and your lies one day will catch up to you ...

*steph*